You've done this thing. Lots of things, truthfully. The things you've done have morphed and changed over time. But there's been an overarching theme to all of it.
Everything you've done, more or less, has been in collaboration with a small committee. You like these other committee members. They turned from committee members into something else. Something more important than committee members.
Now you're wondering what's going to happen next. That is a natural question.
You study the practice of non-attachment. You live in the moment. You try on having no agenda. It feels pretty good. It's better than trying to control everything.
You're already used to going along to get along. You adapt well to others.
Everything seems to fit in place until you have another thought. Once you have the one thought, other thinking follows.
What if there is self-agency about what happens next?
You won't wait around for someone else to lead. But if they do, you will probably follow. That's what happened before and if it happens again it would be an excellent scenario.
Waiting and waiting for someone else to lead seems risky. It's too much to place that on other people. The weight of that expectation feels massive and heavy even for you.
So you'll try leading. You have some good ideas about that.
You'll suggest, invite, write, reach out, pull back, try one thing then try another.
Every time you do something it will be without prior investment in the results. That is where the non-attachment practice you've been finding resonance with will really be useful.
Other people will let you know what they think. They will have words and they will have actions. Their actions will be like words.
Whatever happens won't be the end of the world. Whatever happens might actually be kind of great.
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